I week in the life of a Harlem Rock Star Gal

Me at Marlo's ripping the mic before my brother Rainmaker make his feature owwwww



Me and my best friend Judy lokoing for mice just playing



Dressed like Ghetto Woman (super heroine) with my lovely god child Zion...yea and she is prettier than UR baby lol



If it wasnt for those Chuchifrito stands in the middle of Washington Heights @ 3 in the mornign I would be a vegetarian right now. FUCK!!!




Taking care of bizness



I am Ihops most loyal customer lol. Go ask the staff



This is me @ The Rooselvelt High School Talent Showcase with Miss B. The illest MC in Washington DC. The Freedom School with booking agent Tenisha Percell. It rained the whole time we were there ;(



Did I tell you story how I got kidnapped by a crazy vegetarian who wouldnt let me eat a Philly Cheese Steak sandwich in Philly? Well after we escaped we went to Bob Evans with KD and Destination. I had sum banging hot cakes with vanilla pudding in the middles and strawberry/banana sauce on top...cuz I'm a princess duh!!!





Went to Pop's house (Abiodun) everybody was getting shitface drunk and doing poetry. We were definatly on our limerick ish. And Aja graced us with her beautiful voice and Taliban scarf



Me and Albe acting straight fools. Yea we were drunk



This is my road dog Jessica Rabbit AKA Souletic

She has a nasty flo so fellas better watch out

Cali, France, London and Amsterdam.

I'm being booked by Skoolboye going on tour with dem. And I'm a Wordstock Poet under Regie Mason (alongside Rainmaker and D Black, heavyhitters) going on a eastside tour then a Europe. I'm blessed yo. Cuz this time last year I didnt know I would go so far in so little time. I guess hard work pay off. And nice guys dont finish last.

**chuch**

Maybe I'm High but...

I used to collect old skool comics. Marvels being my favorite. Now I didnt read them I just collected them. But all this hype about Ironman got me thinking. The original Iron Man in the 60s and 70s was black. So why is the dude in the movie white? They giveth and taketh away. aint that dqa fuckin truth?

the above strip is takin from #225

So...

I signed the contract this evening I am officially on tour. Luckily though it doesnt really conflict with work and play and I guess I'll be going on tour in the middle of this one because the tour dates are 2 weeks apart from each other. So I guess I can hit up the areas we dont

Child Support

I'm 21 and apparently still on it. I aint broke no mo bitches! Lol

Smack and old man? YES!

Okay me and my road dog Rainmaker is in the Hope Center on the computers conducting various shit we have to do for the tour coming up. I walk outside to smoke a ciggarette and sum old man says to Rain,"If that was my girl I wouldnt have her dressed like that..." Bear in mind I had on full length jeans, jacket then only thing he had a problem with was my midriff. So I spit back,"You need to mind your fucking bizness. I'm grown like you grown and can wear watever the fuck I want." This nigga walks away so I follow him every step. I'm trying to have a decent dialogue with partner and this nigga call me a "whore" So I start calling him all types of bastards, old mother fuckers and rah rah rah. Then I had to stop. And it came clear into my head. I'm gonna punch that fool in his mouth ne4xt time I see him or get sumone to fuck him up. Now on a normal day I wouldnt have cared, but I'm hungry, broke and have to perform tonight on a full stomach.
Who made this motherfucker the "Ho Patrol"?
Cuz there was a bunch a niggas on the corner selling weed to the yute. Now I wonder if he ever told those fools to stop selling halucenigens to grade schoolers? Because I DO! I guess everyone wants to be some kind of police. Old men suck. The last of the good died when mine passed. Cuz if my grandfather seen me he would have said,"If one of these fools holla at you make sure they take you shopping!"
Had 2 end on a positive note lol

Broken arm? Newwark and ish

yo my arm still hasnt heeled. I now know what it feels like to be an artist living from hand to mouth. I mean its cool. The only thing I'm missing is Mary Jane. Went to Jersey last night killed the microphone. Got asked to feature at sum next club in downtown New Wark and everythig is running smooth. I'm going to the Key Club tonight the place I will be featuring at in the near future. Owwwwwww! wats going on now is that I'm petitioning my ex boyfriends for reperations. They are forming a queue and I'll be colllecting money througout the day. That sounds a little bit ish but you know I'm a good girl. If all else fails I will be panhandling. Oh yeah just because I'm fresh and fly dont mean i dont panhandle lol.
I didnt know how much my ex boyfriend companionship meant to me until I went to Jersey a couple of days ago. I had 7 dollars in my pocket (after Time Warner, Verizon and the rent). Enough for an orange juice and sum weed. I broke into tears. Whatever. I wouldnt go back to someone just because their pockets are chubby.
This is the period where my love for poetry will be tested. I'll pass. Believe me, with flying colors.

1116? Not Quite but fuck it.

Okay. I got signed to go on a 17 city, 35 university college/high school tour. Its kinda *uckd up that it is happening right around the time I wanted to do my 1116 tour, But I'm getting paid, paid well and I still have to write new materials for the college tour so when it comes to my solo mission I have more than enough. More than enough. (sorry ir beared repeatign) My arm has recovered somewhat so tommorw I'm going to work. Get ready for the things come up. Its kicking off within the next 3 monthish. So of course I need sneakers, dresses and some time to design my signatire shit. I got DJ lessons (sad isnt it) and modeling classes to go to.
I'm being stretched thin. Too thin. I wonder how I dont let my mask slip.
I'm also starting to look my age.

DJ Fairytalez

That's hot right? How I used my stripper name for my DJ name? Tell me that ish dont sound hot though? And my name dont just sound good I was having a very intriging conversation with DJ Disciple (house music , huge on the UK circuit) and I figured out my signature sound using the theory that sum songs need intro and others need warning labels. And I'm going to do that...how, you may ask? Wait til I start spinning bitches....coming to a club across the pond heifers. Whats the point of djing in the US when the guap and adventure is out of country.

Poet, MC, DJ? I'm making myself very well rounded this year.

Broke Ass

Aint been to work since Monday. Sprained arm. Occupational Hazard. Damn those pole tricks.

Penn and Teller-Airing dem out

I was watching Penn and Teller tonight they were talking about Gun Control. And I love these dudes for the simple fact that they break shit down from both sides and the answer is clear cut to anyone with common sense.
Guns dont kill people, people kill people. If every chick in america had gun niggas would think twice before robbing or raping them. If niggas is already robbing, raping, killing, extorting and doing all this debauchery what makes you think that they wont break one of the 20,000 laws enforced for gun control? Duh. Fucking duh.
What if we abolished all guns? Well then we would be completly defenseless against the NYPD, LAPD, FSPD, all pds, CIA, National Guard, whomever got the shit that can round us up and fuck us over. think hard on it.
And I personally believe like Thomas Jefferson that there needs to be a revolution at least 20 years to kick tyrants out and keep fresh minds behind the desks that run our great nation. I aint no patriot but I wave a flag and sum toast on Harlem's behalf and all hoods. I'm gutta like that I guess.
I'm ready for Marshall Law is you?

Surprisingly...

I do have class and I know when to act like a lady.

Fucking Tired (Weak Chest)

Because dead ass. I love blogging. And I cant do it because I have reherse, spit, and get to the club on time.
I eventually knew I would have to travel into the realm of adulthood. But I'm a child at heart that means sans 9 to 5 or any job I got to work 8 hours. Alast I got to work to look fly because I going on a block money strike. Except from the dudes that make it rain on me.
So I need to make enuf money to pay bills my poetry bookings dont cover. And besides that I want to buy a house in Honduras so I saving my money hard body. Then there is the book, the LP, the publishing company and the record label.
And if somewhat important to me you know I'm suffering from an affliction that makes it hard for me to breath let alone. Stand on my feet and climb poles all night. Thank you Newpipe and the World Health Organization. For all the cancer patients you have produced.
The only thing good I can say about that is that I debuted at Bada Bing's Gentlemen's Club and was recieved very lovingly by bartenders and customers...Made sum decent guap for it to be a Monday night.
I'm off to Philly this Friday for the R.A.N.D.O.M. showcase. Got to get sum fly kicks and sum gold leggings because I'm the feature. Yayyy!!!
Watever God is in attendance I want to thank him because I really blew up since I've been on my open mic and slam bizness. I'm getting booked sum serious paper for a chick who can barely memorize her shit. I think my Grandpa watching over me...for real thank u Mr. Dean

Him: when you do that thing with your mouth you remind me of Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman...
Me: WHAT???????!!!!!!!!
Him: I mean when when u stuff breakfast food in your mouth. Why? Whatchu thought I meant?

(give me the serenity)

And in this episode of my My Harlem Daughter...

I was a bad girl and went to Queens this weekend. Much weed was smoked, petron drank and no resolution to this problem...i punched the shit out this nigga though. I dont liked being pinched and poked

Flav (Short Open Letter)

I hate you. I love that you brought yourself back from the grave. U a black man getting money. By fuck up means but you got 7 kids so I can understand. But the constant mockery of love is hurting and it sets an a example for black yute to test out 20 something people "to try and find love". Black people are a endangered species if you aint notice.
On a personal note you ugly as hell. Stop wearing your hair like your satan. Your mother look like a frog. So she need to stay off tv. And stop participating in this bafoonery. please...

Jersey Girl

I like Jersey for sum reason. Maybe its all the sexy men on Market wid they dreds. Granted they are corner huggers but at least they dont cat call me to death. They just say Hi and keep it moving. He is a distant memory as I explore new horizons....










Funny he used to live out here too

Howard...I'm Home

I thought I wasnt even going to make it out there becaus ethe New JErsey Transit train stop running at 1 in the morning and I'm too retarded to do the path train...
but had to run up to 32nd and 6th to do it anyway



made it to Tenisha's shop before everyone and was shivering in my white in the rain with no umbrella



Then there is a major problem there is 15 heads and its only a 8 passenger whip so we had to kick sum people out the whip but whilst doing that the police that had parked on the corner doing illicit behavior decided to give us a ticket



So we took the ticket. And went on our way. I woke up crossing the Deleware Bridge and it was hot as shit so we had to get sum tea and cigarette







So we had 3 hours left but we was chillin



When we got to DC we took sum pics in front of the Malcolm X mural





but I needed a dutch and I couldnt find one



when we got to Howard I just decided to reherse





all of a sudden upon being in front of these conossieurs of hip hop I got kinda nervous



But everything went good got sum DJ tips from the local talent



met Miss B (thank God for female MCs)







made sum friends



met sum boys





and on my way home on the NJ Transit I was so proud of myself. Travelling is sum kind of inebriation even if its 3 states away

Sad

Some people wont or dont want to know the truth

www.truthzonetv.com

So, Ms. Crawford....

My mom has been suffering from Mommy Dearest symptoms but she is better now and we are talking again.

I Mean You Didnt Think they were going to Convict those bastards...did you?

Ima sum this up because this shit is pretty simple.
Sum bitch ass po lice lit sum nigga up on sum BS. Shot so crazy there is still holes in track 3 and 4 at the Sutphin LIRR station. These cops shot and killed the dude in cold blood.
Have you seen sumone shoot a gun? Imagine that shit 50 times. They had to be shooting and equivalent of 3 minutes. Richard Brown, (Queens DA with the frog voice) gonna sit there and say that Judge Cooper was right. And Obama sucking wild cock telling black people to have faith in the "Justice" system...

BUt.
People need to get angry. I dont believe in that passive shit. I believe that if you riding on me and mines im riding on you. Meaning that if a cop is abusing sumone the cop should get abused. And people dont see that. People dont need to get out there and shoot cops but they do need to make they voices heard. Because if you let the police ride on you they gonna wear you out and when you get real tight, youll be so enrage youll invite death upon your person so I'm saying this. Fuck being law abiding, quiet and complacent. Let your voice be heard. Or pay the consequences later. Because that verdict means its alright to kill us. Because the verdict was Justice. "Just Us gonna run this." Marshall Law is hear yo. Get a fucking gun.

Ding Ding Muthafucka

So this was the problem. My shorty went thru the painstaking process of calling me. Asking me why I aint want to see him before I left out of New York. Then when we supposed to see each other this asshole is M.I.A. then got the unemitigated gall to tell me that he slept all day because he partied so hard the night before (his homeboy and his wife on his bday...dont ask) He was so tired apparently he stayed aleep all day and did not have the strength to hit 2 buttons.
So when we finally spoke (the day I was fittin to leave) it was the 1st argument we have ever had in the duration of our relationship. I been dealing with him since almost around this time this year. And not one fight, argument not even a nasty look.
I'm vexed. I cried alot these past 2 days. I went out and brought alot of shit that I really did not have the money for, I wanted to spend that allowance money so I wouldnt have nothign to think about this weekend.
But I was trying to lay down before I wrote this and it was hard I could swear I could hear him call my name. (I know I may be crazy, telepathic or both) but I aint picking up the phone. I refuse. Because he was wrong. If I was a bitch I would "man up" about my transgression. He cant even give me the courtesy of telling me he apologize for being an asshole. And him above anyone else know my life in detail.

I'm not gonna let him get into the habit of acting simple with me. Because I dont like smacking niggas no more and I'm a lady. In addition I know for a fact this is how he like to test chicks (I do homework on all mines). And I aint calling him. Already deleted his ass out my phone book. If he calls he got to be house broken if he dont good riddance cuz I'm busy with my art any fucking way...

Wow

I'm actually proud of myself. I encountered a major domestic dispute (non violent) ,still got to memorize my shit, buy a winning ensemble, do my hair, go to Jersey, go back to Harlem and got back to Jersey. Wow. I'm tired. The only thing is that I leave for Howard in 5 hours my bitches want to take me out and I'm still not dressed, dancehal dress anyway. DAMN!!!

Gonna have mucho pics tho when I come back.

P.S.
I hate that my mother calls me a user whenever I'm genuinely tired. I been up for 20 hours can I sleep for 3? Golly gosh!!

Maybe, just maybe...

I should start memorizing this poem lol I'm a Pisces to the core, hard body

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Bitch Yah

I like Soulja boy for several reasons

1) He a cutey
2) He from Atlanta
3) He come up with sum catchy shit that will make bad ass little boys stay inside and learn his dance steps instead of hittin on lil girls in the park (yeah, who knew)
4) He is definately the hype man in this point and time
5) He having fun and hasnt succumb to the fuckery of the music industry (white boys cant think of anything that creative, they'' market the fuck out of it tho)

He need work on his bars tho cuz you can only be a hype man for a year 2 you lucky. Everyone aint Flavor Flav.

Didnt know I meant so much (lol)

ME: Hey pa
Him: Wats up
Me: I'm going to Howard University and if the lady thats booking me likes me Ima get at least 5 more shows
Him: So when u leave?
Me: Saturday morning at 5
Him: Thats wassup. Your hair straight? You got kicks?
Me: Yea pa I'm good
Him: Congratulations baby. I'm proud of you
Me: Thanx boo. Well, Ima run up the road and get Spaz (my sistren)
Him: Aight baby


30 minutes later


Him: How come you aint ask if you could come over before you leave
Me: U be BUSY! (sounds familiar no?)
Him: That aint no excuse, you going out of state
Me: Like you dont be going out of state without telling me
Him: I see you before I leave I just dont tell you I'm leaving (wow)
Me: Anyway I dont like asking to come see you and u tell me you busy. So when u want me to come see you let me know
Him: Thats foul. I'm strictly business 90% of the week
Me: Aight nigga so you wanna come over?
Him: Nah bitch you hurt my feelings
Me: You aint got none
Him: I got more than you know
Me: Whatever. you coming over? we can get sum Mo, Dre got that fire Sour and I got the new Black Street Hookers
Him: Dont try to lure me in wid porn
Me: Still love you
Him: Aight yo I'm coming thru tommorrow



There was way more to the conversation cuz we talked about 5 times today. He really felt some kind of way because I didnt ask to come see him. I usually dont ask anyway. I have been noticing a lot of the things is changing with this dude. He want me to stay all week when I come, he want me to stop stripping all of a sudden (it got more to do with one of his peeps coming to see me and press me, than anything else), and he usually keep his wallet open for me but if it has anything to do with my poetry he make sure I got it. He wants to give me money so I can go to the writing workshops at Sarah Lawrence but I dont want to take his money. I just want him (less asshole and more sympathetic)....and a little money lol

My first College Show....in 4 years

So my homeboy Uninvited invited me to come share the stage with him @ Howard University @ the Annual Hip Hop Caucus. I'm muy excited cuz I'm also on stage with Rainmaker, Tenisha (CEO Bleek and Indigo. Very ill poetry ya'll. I feel like all my hard work paid off. I feel like once u can get booked on your talent and not because you rolling with certain people you arrived somewhat as an artist. Like your name stands by itself.
I was definately surprised when one of the artists I was auditioning with said she was fond of my work.

RIP Alexander Supertramp

Was the fucking man...except he liked meat too much thats why he died

1230am

So I was entertaining last night and hubby calls me. I never got the call I swear my phone never rang. Funny though how last night I was saying to myself that I should just dissappear for like a couple of weeks and not tell him where I'm going. Not even a goodbye text.....that was around the time I got the call...that I didnt hear. And I'm sure your asking yourself where I'm going with this blog...wifey telepathy. I send sum kind of warning wave to this nigga and he know he got to call me or come see. This has happened at least 5 times, I'll just be sitting around having mad animosity for this man and then he will call. Usually saying somthing to the affect of are your mad with me? I just thought about you blah blah fucking blah.
I'm glad I didnt hear the phone ring. I think our only problem is he think I'm one fo these ride or die chicks they speak of in songs (no problem with cheating, content with spending money....) I can only ride for so long...and I'd only die for my baby father and he damn sure forfeited that right

If you have stank breath....

....please dont volunteer to roll the spliff. While the weed burn it got a sour smell to it. And it makes me want to throw up. This is why I dont like smoking in cyphers

Ultimatum

Under your jurisdictiction we have always been runners up. 2nd best.
Not even having the audacity to shaming ourselves for clamping devil weight shakles on our own feet. Then they wrap they cords around our eyes. Bolt the red, white and blue rhetoric on the backs of our foreheads. Driving they katana of ignorance into our stomachs.
How long will we let these snakes prod into our good nature?
How long will we condone being bitches of dirt?
Whores of circumstance?
Zealot churchgoers
Uniformed fools
the assimilated
will be the first martrys of this machine
if we dont get dismantled
Cuz lynching is old school
But there will be students that mash up they philosophy
young soveriegn souls who hear the silent tryanny
We know they covert bullets will be they friendly fire
Their oppression our P.O.W.
And when they shatter from shadows to dust
Our weary drenched spirits will rise to the sun
in the Holocaust of our discontent

Yeah Yeah Yeah

You really know how shallow people are when they assume they know about your lifestyle. 2 things happened...

I was sitting in my Pop's house (Abiodum Oyewole, not really my pops but watever) and he has like like these historians and poets come there and such. there was this one dude Africanus. He reminds me of a black toad and one of my cohorts refers to him as uncle ruckus from the boondocks. But anyway I'm explaining sumthing about my mother and I mentioned I was a stripper and this asshole gona say.
"Only whores do that"
"So you have slept with strippers Africanus?"
"No it's just that if you willing to take off your clothes for money you willing to go all the way."
"How you figure?"
And it went back and forth like this for a while everyone else in the room was just looking at him like he was stupid. (Never taking into account that he knows I have a boyfriend, he know I dont even present myself like that, not to mention we live in manhattan that got the highest rate for HIV and AIDS...sometimes I think ppl think I'm stupid) lol
I been coming to Dun's house for years and everyone knows me. This old fart just started coming recently, never seen him in there for the 6 years I been coming.
But whatever my homeboy came to my defense saying his girl used to strip. One of the dudes in there used to strip. This chick from BK a had barel met go really heated and was damn near screaming on Africanu) But fuck all that...

He closed minded because I could easily say that every man that has been to jail is a faggot on the down low. That would mean that Malcolm X, Martin Luther King, Nelson Mandela, Ethridge Knight and even Dun was taking long stroke in dey batty. But I have better sense than that because nothing break me. And if nothing can break me into doing something greedy. I would expect the same from my brethren.

And as far as the 2nd incident....shorty should have known better long as dem know me

I miss my grandma Lynn only chick that didnt judge me and smoked profusely lhoodmao

Fuck being inviting to people
I want everyone to stay away from me.
If you feel like I'm going to contaminate you in some way stay far from me.

Papal Masqeurade

Aight so apparently the pope is in town. I cant watch the comic strips i.e. the news without this fat bastard popping up everywhere.
I dont like Benedict the 16th and the vatican for these reasons...

1) As much as the papalcy contributed to the enslavement of black and brown peoples we should get a check every month from them bitches and a public apology every year

2) Benedict the 16th has continually verbally insulted the Islam faith and the Jewish faith. I'm a non denominational kinda gal but I never downgrade others people philosophy of faith, except the one I previously belonged to lol

3) With all the merchandise that is being purchased in the name of the pope when he does these papal masses where does all the money go? Keeping his holy jewelry clean

4) People really have forgotten about all those priests that smell like lil boys booty holes.

Attack of the Swimming Cockroaches

Apparently, cockroaches can come up thru your sink if you dont run the water regularly (i.e. taking a vacation and coming back to a small army of dead 6 legged bastards) It was ugly. I had to get my pplz to sweep them up for me because um I dont do cucarachas, ya dig?

Back to the Desk and Fresh 2 Death? the jury has ruled...

Jury being the various different people that verbalize in my head

Basically we have come to the conclusion that I have to go back to school. Because I was going to just sneak in the back door and read the books in the libraries but fuck it I'm just gonna get registered. For these reasons 1)I have to get my Publisher's Certificate and I would like to be well rounded in all them aspects 2) I could get a real good film education 7 blocks from my house 3) I actually like laying on the grassy knolls with my grass rolled and flipping thru a page or 2.
I'd be lying if I said I dont like going to school I just dont like the fafsa, req. courses bullshit that come with it.
I'll be looking forward to rocking my minis, shorts and verbally abusing whatever history teachers I happen to have.

**chuch**

Gangstalicious

That Boondocks episode was the truff. I cant help but notice how Gangstalicious kinda favors "Fiddy"

My Laptop got Herpes

Dead ass. I cant hear no sound on my friggin computer yo. That is soooooo wack. I really had the desire to run that Sheek Louch song.

I Had a Ruff Week

1) Got fired from my job for being literate in constitutional law
2) Disowned my mother
3) Left my set
4) Havent seen my grandmother for a month
5) Havent seen my best friend in 3 weeks
6) Hating and Loving a fool ass nigga at the same time
7) My passport still hasnt come


WAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!!

I did meet Pinky tho

NYPD fucks up another person tying to get by

I went into work early because my mother was bitching with me. Came in had a drink the cops walk in. They ask for my i.d. I give to them. The bitch walks off with my shit after she see I'm 21. So after she looked at it for like the 10th time. I asked her for my i.d. back.
Then from behind me the Lt. ask me," What's your problem?"
"Nothing, I want my i.d. back so I can go smoke a cigarette"
"You want to leave?"
"No I just want my i.d. back."
This nigga (he was a black nazi) was dead ass trying to make me spaz on him but I never raised my voice. I was a good nigga. They didnt even give me my id back they put it on the dresser counter. Walked out without even telling me where it was. Then the Lt. told the owner Dame something and then I got fired. Over some straight bullshit. I couldnt believe it.
I didnt get loud.
I didnt curse.
I wasnt aggressive.
I was stating the facts.
The police officer was in the wrong for telling Dame that. Him being a civil servant cannot influence a owner of any establishment to hire or fire employees.
But instead of a brother being on some go home type shit he dead ass sent me Stacy (again) to Hot Rod, to Joe. I'm damn begging them to keep my job job. (Only because I was in the right, if I was wrong I would have packed my bags no problem) they aint show me no mercy but its all good.
I'm suing the NYPD and the Player's Club. I got mad dirt. Watch me get my Honduras money.

Betsy aint get to the Dancehall

I knew my day was gonna be pissy because the sky tricked me into thinking it would rain so I took off from my job. So I only had about half a stack to work with on Friday night. I really aint want to go no where but Lauren called me and told me she wanted to go out to the club.
So I had to slip on Betsy (white brushed silk dress with a geisha print and a balloon bottom. picture it. I was saving it for Carlito but fuck him.




had to get sum vittles





suck sum cancer






get prettier










we leave and it start raining





im getting restless





but watever we tuck our tailz. go back inside. got hungry decide to go to mickey d's.







ran into sum riff raff hood niggas. talkin bout they long dicks and making our consumption of animal flesh quite difficult. Tersit veerbally abused them. I brandished and waved my Moet bottle like a drunk Hessian. Lauren smeared a fry on homeboy face. It was a fruitful night for all.


I hopped in a cab went home and looked at my sexy body in da mirror